In Love

For the first time in my life a boy proposed me. Though it was not like in the movies where boy bent over his knees and proposes girl with a red rose rather Samrat just came close to me and said those three magical words .It was the first love proposal I got in Valentine’s Day. I was shocked as me and Samrat were only friends. I acted as if I was not interested to be in a relationship with him but inside I felt butterflies were flying inside my stomach. Though I didn’t knew that I was in love or not but I surely wanted that experience of getting in relationship as all my friends were so happy with their boyfriends. Excitement couldn’t let me sleep the whole night.

 At college, in early morning he was waiting for me at the college gate. There I smiled and said “Yes”. He was astounded and I saw a cute smile came across his face and he had puffy eyes which showed that he hadn’t slept either.

Samrat studied science and I was management student so my classes finished early than his. Then we had our first date in college library. He holds my hand for the first time actually it was the first time some guy hold my hand. I nearly jumped off the seat. I could feel the blood rush in my face. It was the mixture of all the feelings, shy and confused, but then I could feel the heat inside me. I was sure I appeared like an apple really nervous red. Then I started reading as I had to stay in library for the time I waited for him. I must say, I developed a very good habit of reading books while I had to wait for him. That one and half hour was full of excitement. I used to go to bathroom for like ten times just to look at the mirror. I started watching Youtube videos for different hairstyles just to be pretty, though now I wonder what I was doing. Finally, when the wait was over he used to come and meet me in library with that smile I could die for. “I love him” started echoing inside me.

 I realized I actually started falling for him. I continuously thought about him all the time. I blushed even when I remembered his face. Once in dining table, while eating I remembered the way he hold my hand in library and the way I was nervous then I started blushing. My parents were watching me. They asked “What happened? Why are you blushing?”  It felt as if someone poured a bucket of coldwater on me. I stammered but I managed a lie. I told them that Aarati felled from her chair in classroom and it was so funny and I still can’t control my laughter. Though my parents didn’t seem convinced both of them didn’t bother and I was happy about that since I was very bad in lies.

We had few dates after that and the time he first kissed me in my cheeks. It was in a movie hall. We were going for our first movie date. Surely, I spend one hour getting ready and used to comment  myself “Khusi, you look beautiful” I even learned to apply mascara. Then it was the romantic movie we preferred to watch. I was holding his hands as by now I was very comfortable in holding his hands. Suddenly, I felt a kiss on my cheeks. My eyes turned wide as if my eye balls were about to come out. I was so shy to even look at him after that kiss. Almost after 10 minutes when I looked at him  he looked so fine and he smiled at me. There, my heart started dancing but then my brain started questioning, “Why isn’t he nervous? It  seems as if he had kissed hundreds of time”.

Heart: Shut up! Brain. Look how adorable and sweet is he.

My brain then jammed. At that moment, I really felt like if only I could stop the time and hold his hands forever like this. I said to myself,” Oh! You are in love”. I felt as if I was the princess of fairytales and he was my prince charming. We came out of the cinema hall happy , holding each other’s hands. Like that we dated for few times and Every time we had to say good-bye he used to kiss me on my cheeks and that made me feel so special.

After 2 week, while I was studying in library and getting bored. My brain thought of an idea which pleased my heart. Samrat had his lab classes for the last two periods. I planned of meeting him out the chemistry lab than in library. When I reached near lab, I heard his laughter from the classroom nearby lab. He was laughing out loud. It really fascinated me as his smile always made me smile.

 Again my

Brain : He has already completed his lab classes but he made me wait in library.

My soft heart:  He must have important works to do otherwise he would never make me wait.

 I was about to enter the door to surprise him but he surprised me back as I heard him saying “Where is my money Dev? You lost the bet, I kissed her that would cost you 1000rs.”

His friend replied “ I never thought khusi would be so easy to handle. I even had no single thought that she would say yes to you.” Then Dev said, “You have guts, proposing three girls at a single day. I thought it was safe bet but rather I thought Sneha or Zara could have said yes but I never expected khusi to be so eager to be in relationship and since you have kissed her, How does she taste?”

Reply from Samrat shocked me, “She tastes sexy but her expression is the most funniest. You should have seen her face after I hold her hands or kiss her, you could have fallen off chair laughing.”

There I was standing numb and felt as if something very hard and heavy hit my heart. Then suddenly I opened the door. He was shocked and started babbling but I didn’t hear a single word. There was nothing else in my mind I just went near him then I hit a punch in his right cheek. He almost fell after getting back in his previous position shocked; I hit another punch right at his nose. His friend stood numb. Then I left the place.

Rushing back to home at first all could I could feel was rage and anger. Suddenly I was full of emotions and started crying. Almost cried whole night, all those moments were coming in front of my eyes. In the morning I woke up and looked at myself in mirror. I realized how brave I was to do that.  It was the first time I punched someone. I realized that I was strong enough to wipe the tears out, I saw the brave khusi. My heart though felt the pain which I had never felt before; I also realized that I had changed as a person and I like that change. Next morning at college Samrat was at gate, waiting for me, I saw puffy eyes again. He almost stood to talk to me but this time I just stared at him as if his left cheek will get punched. Then he sat back down. I don’t know what he was about to say but none of that mattered to me. He did wrong to me and I won’t forgive him for that but I also can’t forget him. Now after a year, I remember that as an experience that made me brave.  That relationship of 2 week changed me so much. A shy girl changed to brave one.

Today, after one year remembering that incident and writing this story is fun. No boyfriend yet but I have never been so happy like this before. By this time, I am in deep love with someone very special and the name is KHUSI, yes that is me.

Author: Runa Maharjan